So Excited!!

We are so excited to finally move into our own house.  Although the process seems to be taking forever!!  Tony and I feel so grown up now, haha!!  But we are so excited that all we can talk about is what this will mean for us as a family!  I think Tony is most excited over the fact that he can finally get a dog.  This could be a bit of challenge at first, because our kids are scared of dogs!  But we are hoping that if we start them out with a puppy and one that is constantly around they will come around to them.  Of course Tony wants a big dog bahaha!!  We both want a Chocolate Lab!!  I know that Tony is going to name him Maximus!!  So, this is just some random babbling but if you read this then something must've caught your eye!!!

Friendship

Last weekend I attended the Women of Faith conference in Spokane.  This is the first time I have ever attended on and I have to say that it was so refreshing.  Not only did I get a 24 hour break from my kids, but I got to come together with thousands of other women and worship the Lord and let his Holy Spirit come down on us all!! 

While there one of the speakers talked about friendship, at first I was like really??  Then as she got more and more into her message it really started to hit closer to home.  Throughout our marriage we have moved a lot, so making friends has been hard because it feels like everytime I would open myself up we would move again.  So, I just started closing myself off to people or holding them at arms length. 

Even now that we have been in Idaho for almost 3 yrs I still find myself closed off a little and hesitant towards people.  I guess, mainly afraid of getting hurt or what they will think of me.  Silly I know!  The hardest thing is just being myself and letting people see me for me! 

I know that I have a friend who sticks closer than a brother and will never leave me, gossip or hurt me, but everyone girl and even guys need that one friend they can turn to no matter what and no matter the time.  I have many close friends but I will say the my closest friends live in Iowa and Lousiana, don't get to see them that often. 

I have a few good friends from church, but I know that at times I am still holding part of myself back.  Silly, because I know that they wouldn't think any less of me if I made a fool of myself or said something wrong.  I really need to work on just being me and letting people see me for me!!! 

Just a little bit of what was on my mind!!

Oppression

On Monday night in class we discussed a book titled Pedagogy of the Oppressed.  I have to admit that when I started reading the book I was lost.  But when we discussed it things became more clear.  I realized that my biggest Oppresser is myself.  Even sitting in class I kept talking myself out of joining in the discussion.  Then the next day my Brother in law talked about it in his devotional.  I love that God is showing me this and showing me ways to overcome it.  I know that I may never be a great public speaker or say super scholarly words, but I know that I am doing what I have been called to do.  I also view the way I treat and talk to my kids differently. 
The book may have been a difficult read, but after hearing the discussion on it made a lot more sense. 

Whats going on!?!?!?

Wow, so much has happened since my last post.  We went on vacation to Cabo San Lucas and had an amazing time.  Then we got back and got Eddie ready for the first grade.  He absolutely loves his school and his teacher.  The teacher has had nothing but good things to say about him. 

In May I decided that I wanted to go back to school and persue my Master's, so I looked into some schools and some that suited by program and location.  So, I really started looking in Gonzaga University.  Well, needless to say I got into the Organizational Leadership Masters program.  I was excited and nervous all at the same time, so a couple weeks ago I started class.  It has been a lot of fun. 

I am also very excited to report that Tony and I are in the process of buying our first house.  We are so stoked!!  I am excited because it feels like we are finally setting down roots.  When I can I will post pics.  Hope everyone else is doing good.  God is awesome and His wonders never cease!!

Melisa