Friendship

Last weekend I attended the Women of Faith conference in Spokane.  This is the first time I have ever attended on and I have to say that it was so refreshing.  Not only did I get a 24 hour break from my kids, but I got to come together with thousands of other women and worship the Lord and let his Holy Spirit come down on us all!! 

While there one of the speakers talked about friendship, at first I was like really??  Then as she got more and more into her message it really started to hit closer to home.  Throughout our marriage we have moved a lot, so making friends has been hard because it feels like everytime I would open myself up we would move again.  So, I just started closing myself off to people or holding them at arms length. 

Even now that we have been in Idaho for almost 3 yrs I still find myself closed off a little and hesitant towards people.  I guess, mainly afraid of getting hurt or what they will think of me.  Silly I know!  The hardest thing is just being myself and letting people see me for me! 

I know that I have a friend who sticks closer than a brother and will never leave me, gossip or hurt me, but everyone girl and even guys need that one friend they can turn to no matter what and no matter the time.  I have many close friends but I will say the my closest friends live in Iowa and Lousiana, don't get to see them that often. 

I have a few good friends from church, but I know that at times I am still holding part of myself back.  Silly, because I know that they wouldn't think any less of me if I made a fool of myself or said something wrong.  I really need to work on just being me and letting people see me for me!!! 

Just a little bit of what was on my mind!!